Every once in a while, a bad day happens. It creeps up from behind the shadows of happiness and catches us off-guard. It happens to the best of us, I guess.
My bad days forecast some unrequited hatred, that I try to translate into a better story every second. It takes a lot of convincing to believe that people may not always have malicious motives. But it is work. It is a mental chore that sometimes works me up to thinking fatigue. But I try.
I had such a day, a few days back. Waking up on the wrong side of the bed, something had just ticked off the moment I opened my eyes; or so I thought. After that moment, it was falling dominoes.
Through my commute, on the way to college, while in class; all these negative thoughts kept spinning around in my head like a tornado waiting to do some collateral damage. I fought it; and my internal struggles manifest as chronic silence on the outside, always. It gets lonely when you’re inside your head too much.
Until a friend of mine showed up. Having known each other for almost three years now, this person was one of the few people around me that I always felt I could count on. Some people just bring light with them wherever they go.
They handed me a small gift they’d picked up from a trip, and a small rock.
I hate taking gifts from people; it makes me feel guilty somehow, as if I was a liability, and taking a gift meant I owed them something now. But little things like this, they make me feel so warm. Someone saw something and thought of me; they think I’m worth getting something for. I felt extremely special.
I do not care for materialism; I care for the personal touch, the emotional value of something. On that day, it was everything I needed to know that despite my thoughts there was someone. That I wasn’t alone. That small gesture was the switch that flipped my day around. And I’m so thankful that something somewhere found a way to tell me that I need to appreciate everything that I have. It’s the little things in our life, scattered all around us that have the most potential to make us happy; but we keep forgetting to acknowledge them, and end up losing them.
If you have someone like this in your life too, acknowledge them. Be grateful for them.